...when I took the blame.

This is a comprehensive listing of the awards I've won for my graphics/icons, which can be found at prism_perfect.

( ...maybe walking down the aisle. )

This is a comprehensive list of the nominations and awards for my fanfiction, which can be found at cold_fiction.

( ...always the bridesmaid, never the bride. )

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Stripper Baby
www.comedycentral.com
Web Redemption 2 Girls, 1 Cup Reaction Demi Moore Picture

I just...gosh, I love Daniel Tosh.

ETA:
...have you ever seen something so...random that you can't help but crack up? I just did that. ALSO, WHEN WATCHING THIS, BEAR IN MIND...at first all I heard was the song. For some reason the vid was auto-playing without prompting and I'm at the top of the page wondering where the song is coming from and flashing back to Clerks 2. Still...just...made me laugh harder than I've laughed in SO long. Also, random post is random (and gets new tag).

paynesgrey, don't ask me why that dude reminds me of Sesshy. I don't know. Just does.

I was very tech!geek today, if only in the most simplistic fashion. *ducks aronacus's self-righteous shoe* Wut? I'm a SIMPLE tech geek. VERY SIMPLE.

I did my taxes, on TurboTax (a program I LOVE). Found out I'm getting about the same I got back federal last year...however...this year I OWE state taxes which was a mind!frak that hurts me where it counts most...monetarily. I'm gonna have to shell out $75 to the state. *shrugs* It happens, and as long as it's not some huge ridiculous thousands of dollars owing, I'm good. Just cranky.

Also...*drumroll*...I set up a wireless network in my house so my bro can play PS3 online. He asked for a router for his b-day so I picked it up (Nana is paying) and I've gotten it set up. It's still "my" internet, but he can use it since I'm going to be using his router. *shrugs* I'm astonished that I got it set up with no problems. Usually I'm computer illiterate, though honestly it's ignorance rather than stupidity with me. If I had someone explain it to me, or if I did research into it I'd be okay. I pick things up fairly quickly and rarely forget things that are simple/neccesary.

Also, on that note, after three hours of fooling with my computer doing SRS BSNS...I'm being lazy now. *nah nah nah!*

I literally haven't watched ANY tv when I didn't have my laptop. I have to catch up on HEROES, LotS, Bones, Castle, etc. etc. etc.!

I will admit that I didn't let Leverage or Burn Notice go by without watching, mostly because I could watch those on cable OnDemand, which makes me happy. Burn Notice remains top of my favorites list, just cause Jeffrey Donovan is so...multi-faceted and slick. ADORE him. I would love to see Enver from Dollhouse on that series with him. The two of them playing different characters over and over would make my brain explode.

Speaking of Dollhouse...yeah, that finale kinda did. I'm both proud and amazed that Adelle survived it, and with the non-mentioning of Dominic...well, I'm totally writing that post-finale fic of them finding each other.

What's funniest? Without my laptop available...THEN MY MUSES DECIDE TO STRIKE. YOU FICKLE MUSE-Y BITCHES.


*shrugs* I've been scrambling all morning to get together the posts for paire_icontest and realized belatedly that it was time for Icon of the Month voting too and my head just literally hit the desk. Hopefullly...I should be caught up on my modly/banner artist commitments in a couple of days, then I can be a lazy bitch for another couple, so by Thurs./Fri., when I'm off, I WANT TO BE ABLE TO WRITE, DAMNIT.

*waves* Luuuuuucy, I'm hoooooome!

I am...basically...fangirling over getting my laptop back. It's not doing anything funky anymore, no strange noises and all that, so I'm so very very happy.

Like...giddy.

Okay, soooo...tell me! Did I miss anything? Anything personal I need to read? Any posts? Any pictures? ANYTHING?!

I'm going to take my laptop into Best Buy tomorrow and they're going to send it to be serviced. That means 2-3 weeks without a computer. And yes, this does suck.

I can still do my modly duties for paire_icontest, minus the graphics/banners. Problem is that I have to do it at my dad's house on the fly on Sundays. Other than that, no computer at all.

This is gonna really suck. I do EVERYTHING on the computer. Banking, correspondence, EVERYTHING. Damnit, why didn't I get a GEEK SQUAD warrant instead of just a BEST BUY one?

Oh, yeah, because they were like 200 more. *shrugs* It'll be difficult, but I will make have to make due.

Try not to miss me too much.

So the fan on my laptop is making a very loud and very irritating noise. And when it makes that noise the entire laptop begins to vibrate.

HOWEVER...

I have a two year warrant with Best Buy. I've had it less than a year.

Those bitches will be fixin' this and soon.

I intend to take it in tomorrow, so if you don't see me for a while...this is why.

*smooches*

So I'm making the banners for Best of 2009 (over @ paire_icontest...GO VOTE...) and as I'm doing so I'm watching the latest Dollhouse.

( Let's join the mind-fuckery in progress... )

I have my car back.

Yay!

Also, poorer now, but not a mortal wound of poorness. Just kinda poor. Will recover in two paychecks.

YAY.

( My thoughts on Dollhouse... )

Frakkin' Dollhouse, why must you get SO good SO close to the end?!

I'm watching Heroes, the latest two episodes...and...well...

The intense eye-secksing over Nathan's casket? Terribly inappropriate of Paire. Terribly. Inappropriate. I know that somewhere there is a fic of them getting it on (full smut) on Nathan's grave and now I kinda want to go find that fic just for the wrongness of it.

Also, alot of secret meetings in Heroes lately. Lots of skulking about. Lots of underhanded plotting.

I really hope Samuel sticks around, these new characters just really click for me. They've introduced new characters before who...well...I hated with a fiery passion, but Samuel, Lydia, all of them, they really WORK for me. I know some people have been disappointed still with Heroes, but I really do think this season is a step up from the previous ones. If they do get another season (and there are many indications that they will) I hope they continue on the uptrend. In a way, the show has lost it's "newness" for me, the all consuming wonder of it, but it's still one of my favorites.

*shrugs* Just some random thoughts.

ETA: Oh, Sylar, how I adore thee. DUDE, SAMUEL JUST PULLED A SORAYA ON SYLAR.

Soraya is a character in New X-Men who controls dust/sand and in one memorable issue she killed a guy with her ability. It was awesome.

DAMNIT, WRITERS, STOP STEALING SHIT FROM THE COMICS.

ETA(2): Sylar is back with the creepy obsession with Claire, YAY. Though...it totally did make me squee, mostly 'cause we've seen this coming for a long time. I want a Paire vs. Sylaire showdown like WHOA.

Yesterday I decided to dedicate myself to writing. I was going to get something done if it killed me. It worked, my nose to the grind mental discipline! I had three pages done for an update for one of my multi-chaptered stories that I hadn't updated in forever...

And then...

The program froze while I was checking facts on a back chapter.

And I lost all three pages. The program was all "We can recover these open documents" and I'm like "Okay, do that" and it SAID it was doing that...but then nothing. Can't find the recovered doc anywhere and it didn't come up when the program rebooted. My head exploded.

And in a fit of pique I played Sims 2 all day instead.

Frak. FRAKKITY FRAK FRAK FRAK.

My car has a busted strut, and to fix it I have to replace both front struts and in doing that I need an alignment...bringing work total to over $700. And that's a big no. Not happening.

So...new car for Tiffany in 2010!

And by new car, I mean roughly used, put away wet, but still runs okay CAR!

I am determined to not let this bother me. I will not break down over this. I have plans in place, things to do, and no time for girlish break downs.

Huzzah.

So, stupid Yahoo shows me this video and I can't help but LOVE it. The video itself is great but I actually rather like the song too!

I need to clean my room, go through and get rid alot of stuff. I just don't have the room for all my junk. I do this a couple times a year, go through and get rid of stuff. One thing I KNOW is going is my gigantic Domo, I just don't have room for it. *pouts* I got it from my work when Halloween ('08) was over. It's like two and half feet tall and I adore it, it's just too big. I also have a gigantic two foot teddy bear as well, but Nana gave me that and if I got rid of it she'd keel me. I can put the bear on my bed, though, cannot do that with the Domo. *cries*

I intend to buy another bookcase, which is why the Domo has to go. Which a new bookcase I have the room for my books and tv seasons (of which I've gotten THREE MORE this week and I want to buy at least two more) (Dollhouse s1 for $20, and SPN s4 for $17, both at my work, I WANTS). I've got lots of little knick knacks too, mostly stuffed animals of some sort so I need room for those. I used to have alot let but Nana has been buying them for me for a while.

While we're on the subject, I just got done putting all the Christmas stuff away and I realized...I filled two gigantic plastic tubs with what we DID put out...and there's still like five more tubs in the basement of Christmas stuff. *head/wall* I tried to tell Nana that we need to go through it and get rid of some stuff but I already know she's gonna want to keep EVERYTHING, she always does. She's a very sentimental person, and I...am not. I'm practical, the kind of person that if I don't use it I'm not keeping it around. If I don't wear it, I'm getting rid of it. I don't see the point of keeping things that I don't need to!

*dragon roar* My head hurts, btw. I'm a wee bit cranky.

Happy New Year to everyone, though! I hope you all had plans and had fun!

So, I was at work today and I'd been waiting for this week's ad to come into effect, mostly because...

I GOT TRUE BLOOD (s1) and HEROES (s3) FOR ONLY $17 EACH. I SAVED...ohhh....$64!

I knew there was a reason I liked Christmas...cause the sales before and after are CRAZY.

Also, obsessed with Adele/Dominic from Dollhouse now. Can't stop. Reading. FANFIC.

Or however that song goes.

Is it wrong that I love the snow? Don't love driving in it (mildly like it because it ZOOMS at the windshield), but love to watch it come down. YAY.

Moving on, finally saw last week's Dollhouse, and of course LOVED IT. Joss Whedon is the king of crackery and really knows how to take the mind crack and make it seem so real. Also, LOVE LOVE LOVE that Victor/Sierra (Tony/Priya) was so interwoven into the episodes. I can't help but feel Joss is going to...well...pull a Joss and kill one of them off. He kinda teased that he would, tricking us into thinking one of them hadn't made it, but then they did. (Also, Tony stabbing Priya was totes an omage to BSG's Helo stabbing Athena.) (TAHMOH!) Some of it was predictable (Victor/Sierra sexy dream), some wasn't (it was PRIYA dreaming it), but as always I love it all. I can't help but hope that Joss really goes out with a bang instead of a whimper. There was no warning with Firefly, so whimper was all it COULD do, but we've got warning with Dollhouse, DO IT RIGHT, JOSS, DO IT RIGHT.

I hope everyone is having a nice holiday, whatever religion/traditions you may celebrate.

This season inevitably brings on thoughts of faith and God and though I've always made my stance against organized faith systems of any kind, I find myself embracing the odd religion/faith that I've developed over the years. In high school I felt certain that there had to be some faith system out there that would resonate for me. I tried buddhism, christianity, wiccan, and others, but nothing ever rang true for me. From that experience I learned that, at least to me, faith isn't something that spontaneously forms in people. It's something that is taught, and no one in my life every taught me. By extension, from faith comes trust, and I've never been able to trust easily.

I do have a faith of sorts, though. I'm struggling to not force it into a category as perpetuated by modern society, but it's there. It's not a faith in God, or god, or gods, because I can honestly say that for most of my life I've been oblivious to any higher power and remain uncertain as to if it exists today. Do I need to know there is something/someone guiding my actions in order to survive day to day life? No. If anything I think I believe in Darwinism and the theory of evolution and that everything is mostly left to chance and choice. We make our own destinies.

Still...one of my gifts this year was a medal of St. Agnes, of Rome. She's a Roman Catholic saint, and though some may find it hypocritical of me to wear such a thing and not be a person of that religion, let me explain.

My faith lies in people, not in the God they worship. I'm awed by the fact that there are people in this world who can believe so deeply in something that they cannot quanitify or hold that they give their lives for it. There are people throughout history who've made a leap of belief that I can't even begin to understand. I believe...that they believed. They are people that I can know, I could travel to see their remains and gravesites; they're real for me. I need something real to base my faith on, and saints somehow work for me. St. Agnes is one of my favorites, not the least because I can identify with her.

None of you likely wanted to read such a heavy post, but...it felt good to put down into words what I'm struggling to recognize about myself.